( Planet Perfect )
In the past four years of my life, I have seen betrayal amongst a group of people. I have seen people use their authority to abuse the ones under them- to feel better about themselves. I have seen people change from good people into hairy demons. I have fell into the trap of a deceiver; I put my foot into a truce that was only a "Religious" attack. I once led a life hating the majority of Religious people based on that of the sinner’s actions within. I was wrong, but the accusation was half-way correct; most of the world has bad intentions and most of the world fall into a Religion.
I have fed people secrets that I would rather them vomit back up. I reached out for some kind of guidance amongst the people around me. I failed, these genes are still swimming inside of me; this mind still impulses on the same unstable level. I have befriended people that have only wasted my time. I have been used. I have lost, many times in my mind. I battle a demon within my heart, he will not let me live today. I wish I was young again; my mind has not been developed enough to take on the world. I wish there was no orientation. I wish everyone could live on the same planet.
I have put more than enough time into a relationship that is failing; I have put more than enough progress on a planet with no progression. I have seen people for whom they really are. I have seen that beings only have hidden intentions. I have aged into a body that I wish would rejuvenate back into the unaware form of a little boy; I wish I could be as blind as they are. I wish I could pretend and believe that everything is okay. I wish I couldn’t see your flaws anymore. I wish I could stop trying to be so damn perfect. I wish I could take narcotics to nullify the mentality of reality.
I wish I could be just like you. I envy people that are normal enough to have friends. I wish I wasn’t so damn distant. I wish I could smile with a frown. I wish I didn’t look like me. I wish I could bleed out my insecurities. I wish I was born in your family. I wish I could look like you and do all the things that you do. I wish I could live in your world. I normally like me, but today I hate me. I wish success was given to me. I wish my efforts weren’t so meaningless. I wish I lived in a bigger city. I just wish I had more possibilities of being the person that I want to be.
