Ghost-like Heart
Pull the shredded curtains back on this regretful past.
When I was dying inside you made this hollow boy laugh.
You gave me something to believe in when I hated my true self.
So I’m left with your smiling pictures and these self-inflicted welts...
So smile at me like you care. Stare and remember what we shared.
You’re a female (so complex.) I loved you more but you loved sex.
And you would have loved her, this mother fucker, but she’s already the ghost inside my head.
........you would have loved her, this mother fucker, but she’s already the ghost inside my head.
I took that picture down to no longer look up at your face. For once I bury your memories in the ground, I’ll plant a flower in your place. And when it blooms to fruition I hope you feel like a disgrace as you watch me trample on the gardens we grew on those wishful days.
I really wish you well- at your matrimony in the fires of hell, you succubus...You destroyed ‘US.’
And if an angel appears to save you. No, it won’t be me! I did my time! The rapture will take you- for all eternity...
I really wish you well- at your matrimony in the fires of hell, you succubus...You destroyed ‘US.’
Locked inside ‘what could have been’, your eyes couldn’t see. Alone, my feelings couldn’t stop you, from scraping down my heart like a harpy...like a harpy...like a harpy.
Laying in my deathbed while my broken mind reflects. I hope you never resurrect, you perfect human wretch. Pulling on my heartstrings like this was a childish game. I lost the natural will to live, but I didn’t lose my shame. You lost your dad and sister but what’s that gonna change, you’re a walking martyr of destruction that yearns to feel the pain. I padded our memories in the ground- hoping you would forever sleep. Don’t EVER find your way back to me...For my ghost-like heart is just too weak.
(I know you said ‘forever’ but you really meant ‘for now.’ If you let me back inside your heart, I’ll kill it somehow...)
-Brandon Defiance
