A Dip into the Abyss

“If you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.” 
-Friedrich Nietzsche


A Dip into the Abyss

Hills of used needles pile by my feet. I’ve been awake for too long and I cannot sleep. I tried to distort this bitter reality. I gazed into the water, but I didn’t see me. “One last kiss” the vampires hissed as they caressed down my neck- with foreign lips my blood they sipped like horny insects.
For leaving behind this tortured life had become my ever-dying wish. I knew I was about to take- a dip into the abyss.

So let’s drink to a hellish world that made this shell of a man. And why these years have left me, I will never understand. My vision began to blacken as I drank its water with these worn-out hands. A voice rumbled inside of me, “Come right in, faithless human...Rather be in here than out there in that age of confusion, where your life is one riddle with no subtle conclusion. While gazing in my dark ripples, I felt that you were losing, so drown deeply into my hallucinogen (narcotic of illusion).”

While reviewing my past life before the black reflection of this pool, that voice could have been deception trying to play me as a fool. But it’s too late for me to turn around and be punished as a mortal. I will take you up on your proposition, sir, inside this oblivious portal. So say goodbye to a God that has never appeared. So say goodbye to a devil that I never feared. Why be frightened of monsters creeping underneath your bed when all the real monsters are tucked away inside your head?

Skeletons of yesterday’s acquaintances are all that remain. This ravenous beast has long been unchained. The witch’s spell has been erased in all my memories, and now I use her suffering as a means of artillery. I’ve been fed the acidic taste of your regret and now its time to spit it- where it belongs. The muses conceal the bruises. Belongingness is a permanence. So I would be concerned about your existence, cry-st or saint-an. No one has appreciated life without being impaled by the thorns of  the iron maiden.



                -Brandon Defiance