I am writing because I feel like I need someone to listen to me. I feel lonely, but I'm surrounded by many people that care. I'm afraid of what the future holds. It's a very scary reality. I'm lying here in bed with a lot of things weighing down my mind. So, I'm just gonna start rambling and see where this goes...
I made it through the second week at MTSU. It's a big place and I'm still a small person compared to its looming buildings. Finding a parking place is the first challenge of every day. What doesn't make sense is how there are more handicap parking than regular parking. Does that mean most of their students are handicapped. It's hard to believe. I sometimes circle a parking lot hoping for someone to leave, feeling like a shark circling its prey. Almost everyone at my new school is a new face. I get out of my car and walk for what feels like miles in a flock of strangers. I'm worrying about how hard my classes could be. All of my teachers have unique personalities, I just hope I make A's in all of their classes. I will try my best. My classes (in this order): Personality Psychology, Abnormal Psychology, Violence in Families, and Sociology of Religion. These subjects peak my interest unlike most those classes I was required to take at Motlow.
Cinder Fingers is finished but I need a few more pictures before I send it off for a copyright. Maybe five or six pictures. I need a picture of a bull. And since I live in the heart of the country, it looks like that would not be a hard feat. I'm hoping it get's published by this month or October. And you better pick up a copy. :p
One of my friends think that I'm changing a lot recently. They pointed out some good examples: I put my hair into a fohawk, I wear preppy clothes over band shirts, and I'm going to a new school and wanting to move up there to start a new chapter. What ever happened to the quiet Brandon, you ask? He's still in here too, but he's matured. Some for the better, some for the worse. Halloween is approaching and my freaky side is coming out a lot more in pictures. Many people that thought I was normal, probably think I'm a freak now. But it makes me so happy to dress up and look scary. It's not to defy God or anything, it's to express to the world that good people can like scary things and not be evil. Think of me as what would happen if Marilyn Manson and Lady Gaga had a baby together. haha I'm not normal, but I try to pretend to be in the public eye. I haven't wrote in a long time and this has helped me. I hope you enjoyed reading. :)
-Brandon Defiance
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